Can't sleep.

Been tossing & turning in the bed for about 30mins. I should be very tired by now, but I can't sleep? Must be the nap earlier on.

You know what?

I miss having the 'butterflies in stomach' kinda feeling. You know... Its the kind of feeling you get when:

1) you spotted your crush along the school's corridor (or anywhere).

2) When you're trying to strike up a conversation with your crush.

2) When you're out on your first date & you're just so bloody nervous.

Yea I miss that kinda feeling.

Maybe corey & me have been tgt for too long (4years plus) and there's no excitement anymore. Everything is just like a routine. We'll go to the same place on weekends and do the same thing. Even when we go have a drink or smth, we'll order the same drinks we always order.

I guess there's just no motivation to try out new stuff anymore.

No more spontaneous trips. (E.g. Let's go cycling this weekend at ECP! Ok on!!)

I remember we used to go new places that we both have never been to before. Just because we feel like going. We don't have own transport in the past, but that doesn't stop us from going! But now, after having own transport, we stop going. Everywhere we go, we gotta think of ERP, parking spots easy to find anot yada yada all that stuff.

Spontaneous trips we go in the past: we'll go Mustafa Centre one day, and have dinner at a indian restaurant nearby. And on another day, we'll take a walk at Fort Canning Park. We'll go tanning at sentosa. Take a stroll at ECP etc.

We don't do that anymore.

It kinda scares me. Are we turning into an old boring couple, who hit town (nearly) every saturday, and on sundays, we'll hang around at my place til he books in?

Give me a few more months & I'll be digging my nose infront of him, because I'm too comfortable infront of corey. (I know its a disturbing image but come on la, everyone digs nose right???)

I wish that I can turn back the clock and experience the 'butterflies in stomach' feeling all over again.

X


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